For three years
I let go of who I was
Left my innocence in the dust
shaped myself around your faults

for three years
you gave me wings
watched me fly
laughed as I crashed
your smile sly
I kept loving
your only savior
I was

for three years
I watched you stab my soul
for three years
I watched your whispers crawl
for three years
I listened to your voice seep into my dreams

for three years
I held the pain
in my arms
like it was a saint
i was

for three years
I fell down the stairs
tripped over my dog
i got mugged
slipped in the mud
which explained my bruises
the blood
i was

for three years
I said it's OK
I'm in love
with my grave
for three years
i was

your words like ice
layer over my only vice
now it is impossible to find
i regret the fatal confidant i made you

for three years
my cold feet
my thoughts slipping away
another day passes
without my say
my pulse gone
my heart
never loved
yet i thought
i was