Ring, Ring, Ring, Ri-,

Your call has been forwarded,

to an automatic voice messaging system.

Hang up,

Try again.

Ring, Ring, Ring,

What the h*ll do you want?

I told you there was nothing to work out.

I'm done.

We're done.


O-V-E-R.


Click.

He hung up.

The phone falls from my hand.

Clatters on the floor,

breaking a deafening silence.

The tears roll down my face,

as my empty eyes stare off into space.

The pain is there,

it hasn't hit me yet.

But it's coming,

Impending doom.

Unstoppable depression,

jumps up and swallows me whole.


O-V-E-R


His voice echos in my head

smooth as molasses,

sweeter than sugar,

deadlier than poison.

Tearing me to shreds.

Stitch myself up,

Pull myself together,

Put on my mask,

And walk away like I'm okay.


O-K-A-Y


Okay,

So, I'm not over you,

So what, you left me here

all alone when I needed you most.

So, I still love you,

So what, you said there was nothing left

those words crushed my world,

Everything I had dreamed of I had,

You were mine,

Perfectly,

So in love with me,

Or at least that's what you let me believe.

But let's be honest,

for once,

You lied.


L-I-E-S


Broken trust,

Scattered across the floor,

Thrown away haphazardly,

Unloved, Misguided,

Not longer wanted.

Helplessly spiraling down,

Trusting no one.

It's not like you to break me down,

When your the only one I trusted,

enough to let in,

to build me up.

Blissfully happy,

for a period of time,

until you decided

I wasn't worth your time.


T-I-M-E


Time does not heal the pain,

or make anything any better.

Nothing makes losing you,

any easier.

You are simply gone.

Without you I am nothing.

You are my everything.

Emptiness envelops me,

and one of my sharp friends helps me cope.

A thin red line forms,

and the pain ebbs out,

escaping my heartbroken soul.


S-O-U-L


Dead,

My body is all that is left,

empty, and simply,

going through the motions,

of everyday life.

Wake up,

Shower,

School,

Go home,

Change clothes,

Practice,

Come home,

Stare at a plate of food,

Put it up,

Say I'm not hungry,

Take a shower,

And watch,

The clear water,

turn a ugly shade of red,

Lay in bed,

Wish for sleep,

And wait for the alarm,

to tell you it's time to start over.


O-V-E-R.