You are so wonderful
You make me laugh
And hold me when I cry
You claim I'm beautiful
And wont give it up
Just know I smile, and blush
When you say it over the phone
I may not believe it yet
But I see that you do
And that makes me happy
I know that I can be difficult
But you deal with it
When you say, "I love you"
I can truly say I believe it
You don’t just fake that you do
You show me it’s true
Sometimes I still worry
That you will up and leave me
But I am learning to trust you
and trying to not do
things that harm me
that's hard to do sometimes
but every time i hear my dads voice
thunder in my mind
everything he told me i am
i also hear your voice
slowly drowning his out
saying what you tell me i am
and guess what
i haven't told you yet
and i don't know why
but you are shutting up my dad
something i have never seen done
your voice is the only one
that has ever been able to make his disappear
and so i look up to you
and am so glad you chose me
and you should be proud
you are making me believe
that i am worth it
that i am beautiful
that i am funny
more than just nothing
that i deserve love
things i never thought before
now are filling the door to my mind
the things that you say to me
i may still put up my wall on you
and not tell you everything i am feeling
but please don't stop what you are doing
because i can tell you now
that you are knocking down a wall
that was built really strong
to try and keep heartache out
built of fear and hurt and shame and doubt
but you are throwing shining balls
of love and truth and joy and light
at the dark fortress i have built inside
and even though i fight to keep it up
when i disagree when you say those nice things to me
i know deep down
that i am wrong and you are right
and that what you think is all i need
to go on with the road to recovery
and with your arms wrapped around me tight
i might finally get some sleep tonight
and just knowing you are by my side
helps me get up and fight my fight
to keep on going
to tell the truth
to not do drugs
to throw the knife aside
to start to truly feel good inside
you are my hero
you saved my life
before you, i was broken
ready to give up on life
convinced i wasn't worth staying alive
so torn and beat up inside
i couldn't even see the light
stuck in the darkness
is a very hurtful, sad, and lonely place to be
coming out, hurts a little, but with some relief
i am glad i did, i am glad i didn't give up
if i had, i never would of found you
please stay with me, by my side
my fights not done, it wont be for some time
but with you right here
i know i can win
just keep being mine
and holding on to me
and saying I'm a beautiful princess
one day, i know ill see it too
and it will be
all because of you.