My Dear Beloved
Maybe you do not know
That is what you are
To me

Maybe you still
Have not caught on
To my love
To my obsession
To my honor
For you

I listen when you speak
Whether it is to me or not
I stare into your eyes
Whenever I get a chance to
Patiently I wait until
I see you next
I cherish every smile
Every wave
Every time you say my name

How you could not have guessed
After three years have gone by
And I in this
Silly lovestruck state
Is a mystery to me
But my love for you is true
My Dear Beloved
Do not expect it
To fade away

I wish that I could tell you
My Dear Beloved
What I am going through
Sometimes I do not speak to you
Sometimes I do not wave
Or even smile

Oh it does kill me
But I do not know
What to say anymore
There are no words
To make it up to you
Or to explain

See My Dear Beloved
I am lost inside
So very lost
My heart
Has been broken
My face
Has been slapped
I have fallen
Down down down
Even when I get up
I keep falling
Down down down

My world is dark and
Blurred
It is cold
Very cold
So cold in fact
I have to wear long sleeves
To cover up my mistakes

My head never stops spinning
My wrists never stop bleeding
My hair never stops falling out
And you
You My Dear Beloved
You never stop trying
To get through to me
You are always there
You are always waiting
You never brush me off
You never let me go

Sometimes I cannot help
But wonder if
You care as deeply for me
As I do for you

And I do
My Dear Beloved
I love you

Maybe one day
We can be together
If you love me in return

But first
I have to learn
To love me too
The same way you love me
And the same way I love you