When your family member's or friends passes away you get mad or sad , maybe angry sometimes when you think about it sometimes you gotta ignore it , it really sucks huh? your life will suck it was all ,y fault sometimesi wanna kill myself so i dont gotta live without you i know it sounds deep but im just being real with you since i was 9 years old ishould of look at  you like my own admire but instead i was being a fool trying to act cool and try to get real friends on my side acting like these kids on the street but thats not me i should of be at home with you and my mom and sister and my grandmother eating some steak and mash potatoes  but when you died i was all alone with nothing to think about i never had you around me since you died i thought it was a spirit following me whatever i be doing but then i realized you found me