I do NOT want to be scared.
But that's what I am.

Let me picture this for you,
Lying all alone, clutching my pillow,
Crying my heart out,
When it should have been different,
All dreamy and clouds and butterflies,
Rainbows and unicorns !

I am not scared of falling for you,
I am not scared of being in love,
Being with you.
I am just scared of having to let it all go.

To laugh happily holding that gift,
Only to cry while it reminds me later
Of how good it could be.
Of how different it would be
If It didn't exist at all !

That 'zing' you know ?
That bond ?
That bond which is so fragile that
It didn't take much time to break !
But you know how little girls
Hate to throw her broken doll away ?
Glue the hand and hug them ?
I am stupidly busy now

Trying to glue the Bond back
To the way it was !


Stupid ? Yes !

Stupid to be scared ?
No !
I don't wanna be scared !
But i am happy that I am scared !