[Verse 1]
Self-annihilation debating on leaving this earth.
Exterminate, and terminate this pain before it gets worse.
What’s the solution? Should execution be my resolution?
Ruefulness and sorrow keep bringing me great confusion.
Spirits corrupted, and I've been feeling self-destructive.
Dilapidated mess in which needs to be reconstructed.
Or obstructed from the universe
My life is full of hurt.
Going berserk, man it’s nothing but an evil curse.
It worsens every single day that I’m living.
It’s so sickening that I have all these thoughts about slitting and quitting.
I’m sinning, but will I ever be forgiven?
I really need some help because I’m sick of this tripping.
But no one will listen. I’m missing the life that I had.
I’m sick of all of these emotions feeling bitter and sad.
As well as mad, fed up with being so misunderstood.
Wish I could travel back in time when everything in life was good.

[Hook]
Feeling so hopeless, these suicidal focuses.
Keep on haunting me and taunting me but no one notices.
Nothing to lose, except depression that just keeps me stressing.
Reality’s a living hell, the opposite of blessing.
Insanity has been controlling my mentality.
Picturing responsibility for my fatality.
Man all I want is for my anguish to disappear.
But I cannot think of another way to have it cleared.

[Verse 2]
This is too crazy, lately my behavior’s been immoral
Transfomrations changed me with conditions deplorable
And I can barely concentrate whenever I’m in school
Picking fights with innocents. I’m losing my entire cool.
Outside of school is nothing better, I sit in my room
Lock myself and try to think of what can cure my gloom
But all that does is build the anger, stress, it just consumes
I’m running out of options and it looks like I am doomed
Friends have disappeared. Leave when I need them the most
If I decide these actions, will I burn in hell and roast?
Sick of this. Wish I could delete all this wickidness
Going through my mind but it’s not easy, it’s ridiculous
Faith is oblivious. I’ve turned beyond insidious
Which instrument should I select to begin all this mischevious?
I know that many think this probably ain’t a smart move
But I can’t take it, what’s the use when nothing approves?

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[Verse 3]
Pacing back and fourth, sweating
Heart is racing fast
I’m thinking if there’s any words I want to save for last
No use for last goodbyes
Tears running through my eyes
Angel on my shoulder and it’s warning me this isn’t wise
The devil on the other’s telling me it’s full of lies
Because what’s the use of living something you really despise?
The angel’s saying if I end my life it won’t be fair
How fair will it be to your family? The one’s who care?
Just keep your faith in god, the lord will answer all your prayers
Follow him, I promise you your life will then be spared
I guess its got a point, but then again I’m still confused
What if he just never answers and I’m still infused
With wistfulness? The devil says it’s time to call it quits
Take the chrome and blast your cranium until it’s all in bits
That way all my sorrows in my mind’s gone with the wind
So I begin to do it, screw it, this is signora
Finally, all of my pain and suffering is swallowed
Good-bye world, I won’t have to worry about tomorrow
Man I’ll be feeling free I’ll do it on the count of three
But once I got to two I saw this picture of my family
Just hanging on the wall, seeing what I’d leave behind
They would just lose it man, I’m beginning to realize
What I’d put them through, so I begin to ball
Drop the gun and tell myself this isn’t fair at all
Man I just want some peace, I’m feeling super hopeless
Wishing I’d get rid of all these suicidal focuses