Look all I'm tryna do is heal

So imma tell you how I feel

Now I'm being as honest as I can be

When I say I wake up every morning wishing I was anybody except me

I mean my life's a tragedy

It's seriously just so sad to see

How my dads back in prison even tho he promised me

But hell I knew you was a liar

I seriously should've thrown all your dope into a fire

And yeah you would have started to erupt

But maybe you would finally wake up

and see you're causing your family so much pain and agony

Especially knowing that when I have kids they might not get to see their grandfather

But why do I even bother

It's not like you're ever gonna listen to me

And I don't need a psychic to see

That you ain't gonna change till it's too late and everything you envisioned gets out of sight

But that'll be when we start coming up to the end of your flight

Wishing you had more time

To ask for a sign

Even tho they were right in front of you

And at the time they was ages 13,12, and 2

And I still don't think you realize what you're beginning to lose

Because the signs should've woke you up like 3 alarm clocks ringing but you chose to ignore them and continue to snooze

Like what the heck dad we needed you

Where were you when I needed to learn to be brave?

Where were you when I needed to learn to shave?

Where were you when times were the hardest?

Where were you when my tunnel was the darkest?

Oh I know where u were out selling dope

While I was trying to figure out what it means to be a man

And face all my problems head on

But instead all I ever did was ran

Because I never had proper guidance from a dad

Which I think is sad

Because i don't know how to let people know how I'm feeling so I just write it down in these songs

Only writing to myself which I think is wrong

Because I should really be letting people know how I feel but I just can't

But it's whatever I think this is the end of my rant

Anyways thanks for everything you didn't do for me dad

Thanks for making my life so bad

Because now I know how not to be you

And start off new

And improved