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Your Home Not Mine
Sometimes
Home doesn't feel like home
Knowing that home is a person
Is a hard virtue to swallow when you know
that the people that should be home are not
Trying to find refuge elsewhere seems counterproductive
the expectations to be somebody you're not weighing down on tired shoulders
Finding family in work, the family I should be reaching for drifts farther from my vision
The pressure of keeping up a good family image becoming less important
Even though what i'm doing is good for me
it doesn't count as much more than a grain of sand for them
Because for them, family should be everything
And self preservation doesn't mean as much as family dynamic
Going home is like facing a wave
Its height looking down on me as it inches forward to crash down
“Working so much is a nuisance”
“You don't make enough time for us”
“Maybe you need to rearrange your priorities”
Expressing my opinions is a dangerous game when they don't match yours
Making it harder to help you understand why what you did was wrong
Why you should look a little deeper into the situation
Try to understand that influencing opinions is different than trying to control them.
More often than not, mental health awareness does not exist here
Negativity will be taken as attitude
Its hard to explain yourself
when there seem to be such a fine line between sadness and disrespect
There are no excuses
You may not know how much I get lost in my head
Though you know when my eyes drop and my spirit hangs low
But with the knowledge that comes with knowing does not come understanding
Just because “we all have bad days”
doesn’t mean my struggles should mean any less to you
Words are hard to grab hold of in the heat of the moment
Hurtful things that are said dont always stick word by word
Leaving it hard to explain why I'm left so upset
Looking in from the outside there is nothing wrong
Nothing to prove that what was said was said
When feelings hold no weight in the sake of an argument
They're just caring people trying to do what's best for their daughter
Flames left behind from gaslighting singe the tips of my scalp
And I struggle to grab hold of the words that you've thrown at me
Finding no proof in memories
It leaves me questioning
Whether i ever had a reason to hate you at all
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