I can feel the pain in this. It's hard to read, even harder to understand... I just want to reach out and hold your hand.

it wasnt really a spirtual crisis, the spiritual issue was everything was spinning so fast I couldn't even get time to pray which was the scariest part. and yesterday I was so upset I was afraid to pray because I knew it would get better and I was so hurt I felt safer in the darkness. i feel better now, of course. as to this incident, Im still healing and dealing with repurcusions but its getting better, mostly thanks to a new kitten being emotional support(hes only 4 weeks old, so I'm literally a cat mom!). ill get over it, with the same broken promises of 'someday' i always do. tho in every one of my real poems and some of my not real poems i point out that someday doesn't actually make me feel better now, it just gives me a horizon to fix on. someday...

Oh my goodness this poetry is just

This is kind of hard to write, considering the pieces you have written about your faith, but I just trying to say that if what you are going through is a spiritual or church-related crisis, I kind of understand that sort of thing. It can happen with all of us, that the church we stuck up for has not stuck up for us and has left us alone or refused to answer our questions. When this happens, it is time to remember that God is not found in creeds or history or even in other people's words that you've been taught, you have to look inside yourself and above yourself and around yourself to find God. Always be bold in your search for truth. Don't forsake your voice or your spirit or your worth at any time for anyone. (I am sorry if this hurts you...I am just trying to help cause this has happened to me. You can tell me if Im wrong) Unfortunataly, going away on a trip doesn't always change things or people...I went on a trip, my first train-trip by myself, and instead of having a fun time, I got absolutely soul-shattered and shell-shocked. In spite of all that junk, though, I still think it was worth it, because I am just that kind of person. All of us are more resilliant than we believe. :) And I think u are great writer.

Please take care of yourself, SparrowSun. You are always so great at encouraging others in your stories. You can do it....oh gosh, I don't know what is right to say...