I wasn’t lying when I said you reminded me of summer 

But I forgot that seasons are temporary 

You were temporary 

How silly of me to expect you to stay 

I cannot expect you to stay any more than I can expect the sun not to set

So as the weather changes

And I become cold in your absence 

I am reminded of how much I depended on you 

As I sit and feel the temperature begin to drop 

I can close my eyes and remember 

Remember your warmth 

Your smell 

The feelings you used to flood me with

And how pretty you were to admire

But that feeling is replaced

Replaced with something cold, bitter

Something the runs deeper than the warmth you brought

Poisoning the waters that used to feed my addiction

Now when I think of you 

I don’t feel fuzzy

I don’t even smile anymore

The thought of you 

The one that used to flash a smile across my face

Is replaced by tears

All that fall

But not nearly as hard as I mistakenly fell for you 

I don’t want to hate you

But I can’t help but want you to feel what I felt when you broke me

When my brain forgot what happiness was

When my heart was torn into a million pieces

When you shattered my soul 

I want to love you deeper than the earth’s core 

But that is not possible 

Not anymore 

You shot me

Your actions pierced me

Tearing holes in every inch of me

Leaving me vulnerable 

You shot me and now my feelings bleed

 They bleed on our memories

They are filtered with red

Instead of a happy yellow 

Left with only anger

You’ve ruined a good thing 

What used to make me happy 

Now only brings pain 

You only bring pain,