Sleep hungry
Wake hungry
Leave the table
Unsatisfied
Remembering all the nights
I cried
Remember all the times
I had to gag
My insides
So sad
me
So mad
So frustrated
I wasn't eating
I wasn't living
Barely surviving
Trying to eat
Starving myself
Starving inside
Starving my mind
So scared
So marred
Ill never forget
The time i couldn't get
All that I need
All that I need to be
To love life
To pull my way through strife
To hope
It was the last stroke
My only hope
That someday it would get better
That I wouldn't
Become deader
To myself
I couldn't recognize
My life
A part of me that never showed
Was peeking out
Was shouting
For the world to see
What a mess I could be
I was trying to hide
My pain inside
But it was escaping
Scraping my soul in the process
Now I am scarred
And everyone knows
Its so strong it shows
That girl with the broken smile
She dying
She wants to fly
But reality is killing her
Ripping her dreams
Out of the sky
Shes crying
Why why why
She cant eat
The one thing she needs to survive
Hope is the only thing keeping her going
Shes nowhere near sane
Near the end of her pain
But shes trying to live
Striving to be her best
A guest
in her tarnished body
Trying to save it
Wanting to end it
But the same hope
Same dreams are alive in her mind
Never give up
The mantra she's been repeating her whole life
Is worn and tattered
But not shattered
it never will be
Not when she can see the happiness
She could have
The happiness she can almost touch
At last.