Time has been lost
and so have we
I held him in my hand
his fur was matted with urine
and his eyes were clouded over
You deserve so much better
I cried
I did this
I am a monster
God please take this away from me
I am not worthy
I am not strong enough
when I hit those notes on the piano
I can feel my heart beat in my chest
and one single tear rolls down my cheek
this is just a corner of the universe
yet it seems so vast and infinite
I am sure I'll be lost if I step one foot off
I heard that he hung himself
because she didn't love him
not like he wanted her to anyway
sure she cared
but she was too preoccupied
painting her bland vanilla mask
she didn't want him to get paint all over it
because she had worked so hard to keep it spotless
I told her
she was f---ing stupid
to let such a man go
even if he was completely busted
on the outside and the in
he was a knight in shinning armor
and all he wanted was her