I’m judged every day of my life,
Although it doesn’t bother me as much as it used to,
It still hurts because no one knows what I’ve actually been through.
I was adopted at birth by my mom and my dad,
I didn’t know what life would be like,
Until I saw the predicament I had,
By about age two they got a divorce,
My heart was broken and split two different directions,
With unwilling force,
I saw my dad a few times a week,
While the rest of the time I was with my mom,
Missing my daddy and feeling so weak,
My grandmother died so my mom and I moved to New York,
I use to be daddy’s little girl,
Then I became the girl who was a southern outcast dork,
I went to catholic school for three wasted years,
I learned nothing at all but how I was different,
And how to cry many tears,
I then went to public school,
It was different I guess,
But my self-esteem seemed to decrease less and less,
Then middle school came,
6th grade was a lot of fun,
I made some cool friends,
And enemies, only some,
Then 7th grade came into play,
I met new people,
Day by day,
Then life took a turn,
I didn’t think this was how life wanted me to learn,
But I began to get bullied,
I was treated like a mutt!
But it only took time till I learned how to cut,
Life became a game of hide and seek,
How could I avoid those that thought I was a freak?
My mom planned on moving,
She hated what was going on,
So I moved within that year,
Back to where I belonged,
But once I was back in my comfy home state,
The relationship between me and my dad,
Slowly began to deflate,
So I started to hit the hospitals,
Because I needed some help,
The cuts on my wrists,
Began to turn into welts,
So after I got out of faking my time there,
I went straight to try to end my life,
Because my life was unfair,
So I overdosed on prescribed medication,
But ended up in a 3 day coma vacation,
I lost all of my friends that I had depended on,
I realized who I use to be,
Had disappeared and was finally gone,
Now in 2014 my life has been redeemed,
My cuts are now scars,
And my old self is left forever stuck behind juvenile bars,
So since I been judged because of my past,
Now that y’all know the truth,
Let’s see how long you will last,
I promise this time,
I’m not giving up so fast!